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8/4- another dose of stupidity

inspiration08 — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 14:07:56 +0000

well. another dose of stupidity. that pretty much sums up today’s eating rather nicely. had a nikuman and coffee for breakfast, went on an hour ride, a bowl of pineapple rice for lunch, then went to work and had about 3/4 a bag og the grab bag sized potato chips before i threw them away and an ice cream sandwich, then yogurt and a tuna/egg salad sandwich for dinner and then another nikuman when i got home. will i never learn? i got the potato chips and ice cream sandwich more out of curiosity than anything else. algae flavored potato chips?! and a white chocolate, cookies and cream ice cream sandwich… new flavor that i’d never seen before, i mean, how could i not try it, right? because i’m trying to lose weight!! that’s why! or at least don’t eat the whole thing. aghh!! this is just getting stupid. no- it already is stupid. and i know i need to go buy some fruits and veggies. and get some sleep. so on that note- i’m going to go to bed!

mind-numbingly boring! update on food log 7/31- 8/3

inspiration08 — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 15:10:29 +0000

*sigh*… suppose it’s time for accountability, so here it goes:

7/30- breakfast- bowl of cereal with soy milk, raisins, nuts, coffee. “snack”- coffee with cream, slice of cake. lunch- rice with 2pc. shrimp, nettle leaf, eggplant and pumpkin tenpura, miso soup, sukemono, 2 slices of eggplant. dinner- about 1/2 cup stir fried veggies, 3 pc. fried shrimp, about a fifth an egg, 4 pc. gyoza (pot stickers?), 3 pieces of beef with bean sprouts, 2 yakitori sticks, 1/2 tomato tonic, latte and about 3/4 of a chocolate chip cookie. eww!! i did a lot of damage in tokyo!! and i think all in all i got about a half hour of walking in

7/31 breakfast- piece of toast, 2 mini muffins, salad with tons of tomatoes, 1/3 of a hashbrown, 1/2 a banana, 2 cubes of watermellon, 2 eggs, 1 sausage link, a glass of grapefruit juice, and 2 cups of coffee (yay for buffets, right?!) . then a latte… and then lunch. about 9 pieces of sushi, cup of egg soup, and green tea. snack- small ice cream from cold stone. dinner- 100 gram steak (i think) 4 pieces of some other meat, salad, veggies, garlic rice, miso soup, annondofu, coffee with cream and then a small mango frappachino from starbucks. BUT- all in all i’d say that day wasn’t too bad. i got in a half hour of strength training and AT LEAST five hours of solid walking. my friend said seven, but i think it might have been more like 6

8/1 breakfast- mini muffin, toast with butter, 2 eggs, 1/3 hashbrown, 2 sausage links, 1 glass o.j., salad, 1/2 banana, 2 slices of apple, 3 cups of coffee, and broccoli. lunch- rice, tofu with some kind of sauce, sashimi piece with shiso and daikon, 2 chunks of chicken, more tofu, and miso with tofu (we went to a tofu restraunt- suprisingly good!) dinner- rice, eel with sauce, salad, 2 pc. grapefruit, miso soup. then a small choc. truffle from starbucks and a slice of cake. and i think all in all i got in maybe ab hour of walking. not good!!

8/2- breakfast- bowl of cereal with nuts, raisins and soy milk, 2 cups of coffee. snack- three cookies and a peach. lunch- japanese pork curry rice, coffee with cream. dinner- nikuman and chocolate covered macidamia nuts (aghh!!! i’m an idiot!! i think that was about 450 calories just with that) and prettymuch no workout.

8/3 breakfast- uhh… that was this morning and i can’t remember?! oh- right. nikuman and coffee, half a pear. lunch- about 2 cups of pineapple fried rice. “snack”- more macadamia nuts (i think i muct be mildly insane? severly brain damaged? not sure what the problem was today!!), coffee, a carrot, the other half of the pear, five pieces of hard candy, yogurt. dinner- another cup and a half of pineapple fried rice. i did get in about a 30 min jog, 10 min walk and maybe another 10 min of ab exercises, but i need to do a lot more!

sorry this was a rather mind numbingly boring blog- i’ll try and write about tokyo (other than the food) tomorrow!

july 29th

inspiration08 — Wed, 29 Jul 2009 14:33:32 +0000

well… not perfect today, but things are getting better. maybe. i think? other than the damn cookies! two bowls of cornflakes with nuts and raisins and soy milk and coffee this morning, then 4 cookies (almost done with them, so i won’t be able to keep that up but i’m hoping no more!) an asian pear, yogurt and chestnuts, 45min/ 1750meter swim, then tuna/mayo rice ball, sukemono (picklen veggies) and a yakitori stick (chicken on a stick with some kind of sauce) taught a private lesson and had a latte, and then got home and ate another bowl of cereal with raisins, soy milk and nuts. still too heavy on the carbs, but things are slowly improving. had dinner from the convienience (i’m willing to bet money i just spelled that wrong) store and i think i did all right… chicken, veggies and rice with tuna. there probably was other things that might have been better, but it’s a lot better than i had been doing.

i’m not sure what the next couple days are going to be like food and exercise wise seeing as i’m going to tokyo with a friend, but i’m going to try and do at least 45 min of some form of exercise every day and i’m going to try really hard to keep eating under control.

and again, to those of you who read and commented on my last blog, thank you!! it really does make a difference :)

july 28

inspiration08 — Tue, 28 Jul 2009 13:26:01 +0000

i cracked. only day two, and i already cracked. breakfast i had (again) beans, cheese, 1 taco shell, lettuce, salsa, some meat and two cups of coffee. went on an hour and a half bike ride, got back and then had a cucumber and about 3/4 cup of berries. went to work and had two peaches, about a cup of yogurt and three pieces of hard candy. late lunch/early dinner at 5 and had okanomiyaki (kind of like a pancake with cabbage, egg, squid, cheese and some mayo). went back to work and had three cookies a student had brought me (not happy about that), came home and i had about 5 hazlenuts. i’m hungry. i want to eat. *sigh* i’m thiking… eat something then a 30 min. workout and go to bed. good grief though, will i ever get there? oh- and the scale was at 56.1 this morning. not good. not good at all.

july 27th

inspiration08 — Mon, 27 Jul 2009 13:09:13 +0000

damn. i’m still not happy with myself for gaining back so much, BUT i will lose it again plus some. and then stay there! food-wise things were much better than they have been- breakfast was about two cups of coffee, black beans with two taco shells, cheese, salsa and lettuce (i know- kind of a bizarre breakfast), lunch was pasta (white though, not wheat) two quarter inch thin slices of a baguette, a salad and more coffee. “dinner”/snack was two packages of chestnuts and two peaches. and then i had a medium latte from seattle’s best. so it’s an improvement over what i have been doing, but i still need to get better. i am happy with one thing though- on the way home tonight i thought about picking up an energy/cereal bar then opted for chestnuts instead. calorie wise they were about the same, but i think overall the chestnuts are a lot healthier. and they don’t lead to more carb cravings.

i haven’t gotten in any exercise yet, but i will as soon as i get done with this. and i just joined the triathalon challenge, so that’ll help keep me in line with the exercise right. so that’s that. and for the two of you who commented on the blog this morning- thank you! i really need the encouragement and support at the moment. it made me kind of sad this morning… when i was on the way to work i realized last summer when things seemed so easy part of the reason was my ex, toru. having that support and just being so happy in general made things just so much easier. i don’t have that now. that may be one of the reasons i’ve been putting pounds back on/ it’s been so hard to lose, but it’s time to just face it and suck it up. things aren’t the same now, and if i keep on doing what i’ve been doing, it’s going to be a very unhappy path. he’s not here anymore to lean on, so i’d better learn to just stand on my own.

well… thanks to those of you who took the time to read this!! i’m going to go get that jog in now

update- (lol- i’m a dork!) didn’t get in the jog due to the rain, but i got in a 45 min dance dvd and about 20 minutes of an upperbody workout. and a cucumber and about a fourth? eighth? cup of blueberries. k. now i’m going to bed. night buddyslim land!

rant to self- damnit!!

inspiration08 — Mon, 27 Jul 2009 02:41:28 +0000

shit shit shit!!! i’m back up to 57.8 kilos… damn!!

time to start all over again. i don’t know what is going on right now with me- maybe it’s stress, maybe it’s a bit of depression, but whatever it is, i am not going to let this take me back up to where i was. i am now 127. that’s up about 10 pounds from this winter. damnit! that means i need to drop about 20 pounds… at least. damn, i’m so pissed at myself for letting myself go back up. granted, i just weighed myself and it’s in the midde of the day, but still, it’s a decent gain even allowing for that. damn. damn damn damn. time to get your shit together, kid

seriously, what hapened?!

inspiration08 — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 14:22:35 +0000

good grief, today was the carb binge from hell!! this mornng- peach, black berries, yougurt and a piece of whole grain toast. then lunch- three pieces of white bread nastiness from the bakery- one with ham and mustard inside, another with a hot dog, then the other was kind of like a large, thick piece of bread with a little cheese, salami and a thought of a bell pepper, oh- and grazing while i was there, then shaved ice (yay for sugar!), next was… you guessed it! a trip to a different bakery, and more grazing, a glass of milk, half a gianormous whole wheat, raisin, walnut roll, and another peach. so, i’ve had milk, bread, more bread, a couple peaches and bread. did i mention bread? good greif!! it’s almost comical. did get in a 45 min ride, but i think i need a hell of a lot more to work all that off. going on a three day hike starting tomorrow, so it’s time to pack and go to bed.

trying to get it together

inspiration08 — Mon, 20 Jul 2009 13:19:40 +0000

humm… well, i did get water in, but not as much as i would have liked. and i’ve done very little cleaning, packing or planning tonight. nor have i gotten in my hour of exercise. so- time to start!! it’s like i get home and see how much stuff i have to do so instead of doing anything, i get on the computer and screw around. not good. well, off for my hour of walking/jogging. i’ll check in after that.

I GOT MY RUN IN!! :D and i went a lot longer than i thought i would be able to that’s really happy- it’s been way too long since i went for a run. ok- more like a jog, but still. i’m happy about it. and i’m hungry!! lol. right- now for some cleaning and packing and planning

note to self

inspiration08 — Sun, 19 Jul 2009 16:01:34 +0000

i’m down a pound for the week, which means i earned back my red star. and i’m not losing it again!! i didn’t workout today- i could have, and i didn’t. i was really tired when i got home from work and the dvd player kept skipping… and i knew i had a private lesson to teach tonight… so i bailed. not doing that again. when i started this last year- last year! it’s taken me 1 year to lose ten pounds! while ten pounds is great, i could have been to goal by now!! anyway, when i started this last year, i worked out every day. and i was running. so… i’m going back to that. it worked. tons of water and more exercise. and more furits and veggies. swimming, cycling, dancing AND running. and while i’d like to start right now, it’s 1 am at the moment and it’s way too late to go out- need to go to bed! i did get some chores and cleaning done today, so while that’s good, i have to do better. goal for tomorrow- an hour of exercise, salad, more cleaning/packing and tons of water. off to bed now!

overwhelmed, so doing nothing? what kind of stupidity is that?!

inspiration08 — Fri, 17 Jul 2009 09:04:49 +0000

i get overwhelmed and then i do nothing. that… well, that’s just stupid. i’m trying to pack up and ship things back to the US and trying to plan a 7 week bike trip dad and i are going to go on… and it’s really getting to me. so instead of doing what i know i should be doing (packing, planning and exercising) i’m doing a million stupid things to waste time. like now- i was going to go to the pool. but i thought, i’ll just get on here and check out a couple blogs and write one myself seeing as how i haven’t sone that in a bit… and now, an hour later, i don’t really have the time to go to the pool. well, that was kind of silly, now wasn’t it? time to stop wasting time!! not enough time for a swim, guess i’ll go do a dance dvd now and then go for a jog tonight if it’s not raining.