july 27th
damn. i’m still not happy with myself for gaining back so much, BUT i will lose it again plus some. and then stay there! food-wise things were much better than they have been- breakfast was about two cups of coffee, black beans with two taco shells, cheese, salsa and lettuce (i know- kind of a bizarre breakfast), lunch was pasta (white though, not wheat) two quarter inch thin slices of a baguette, a salad and more coffee. “dinner”/snack was two packages of chestnuts and two peaches. and then i had a medium latte from seattle’s best. so it’s an improvement over what i have been doing, but i still need to get better. i am happy with one thing though- on the way home tonight i thought about picking up an energy/cereal bar then opted for chestnuts instead. calorie wise they were about the same, but i think overall the chestnuts are a lot healthier. and they don’t lead to more carb cravings.
i haven’t gotten in any exercise yet, but i will as soon as i get done with this. and i just joined the triathalon challenge, so that’ll help keep me in line with the exercise 
right. so that’s that. and for the two of you who commented on the blog this morning- thank you! i really need the encouragement and support at the moment. it made me kind of sad this morning… when i was on the way to work i realized last summer when things seemed so easy part of the reason was my ex, toru. having that support and just being so happy in general made things just so much easier. i don’t have that now. that may be one of the reasons i’ve been putting pounds back on/ it’s been so hard to lose, but it’s time to just face it and suck it up. things aren’t the same now, and if i keep on doing what i’ve been doing, it’s going to be a very unhappy path. he’s not here anymore to lean on, so i’d better learn to just stand on my own.
well… thanks to those of you who took the time to read this!! i’m going to go get that jog in now
update- (lol- i’m a dork!) didn’t get in the jog due to the rain, but i got in a 45 min dance dvd and about 20 minutes of an upperbody workout. and a cucumber and about a fourth? eighth? cup of blueberries. k. now i’m going to bed. night buddyslim land!
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Good job on that cereal bar! They are nothing but sugar & chemicals. You are FAR bettet of with any real food, no matter the calories. If I start thinking about a cereal bar, I generally just allow myself to eat a banana or a slice of a whole-wheat bread with PB.
Good luck with your jog!
thanks for the well-wishes, but it just started raining! grrr… i’ll just do something inside instead. and yeah, i agree. cereal bars and stuff like that are basically just processed junk… have to stay away from it b/c i know i can’t so it in modertion
Good lord, I was eye-balling the cereal bars at the gas station yesterday. lol One that was so hard to put back down: Golden Grahams covered with peanut butter and chocolate. (Why do they even do stuff like that to me??!) lol But I did walk away.
You did great, made a healthy choice! So proud of you! It is hard to do things without a support system, but maybe (I think there’s a good chance) you will feel more satisfied when you achieve your goals, knowing you didn’t have to lean on anyone to get there.
Besides, we’re here for ya! My husband is no help to me anyway, and I don’t know what I’d do without my buddies!
You can do it HON!!!!! The challenge is a great one for you since you love to swim.