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i probably got in about an hour bikeride (slow pace though) and a good hour or so walk, but food wise, things SUCKED! english muffin for breakfast, latte and a ham and cheese sandwich for… something? waffle cone of cherry blossom and green tea ice cream for… lunch? i’m not sure what that was, but it was lunchtime, then another latte and a chocolate chip cookie for the hour and a half train ride home and then a apple cheese pastry and tortilla chips for dinner. seriously, WTF?! i realize i wasn’t at home all day, but good grief! tomorrow is definately going to be better. egg with veggies and an english mufifn for breakfast, then i’m having lunch with a friend, but i’m not going to eat all of it and no sweets tomorrow! absolutely none! and i’m getting some good exercise in tomorrow- sweaty workout, here i come! now off to bed though, i’m tired!

i’ve got such a long way to go to be the person i want to be. *sigh* i’m supposed to work from 1:20 to 5:40 on wednesdays- after that to the pool for an hour and then off to teach a private lesson. and i have to admit, i jealously guard my pool time. so when tonight i saw on the schedual for tomorrow i saw my lessons were shifted an hour back, i wasn’t a happy camper. that in itsself i don’t think would have irritated me so much but it’s not like it’s the first, or even second or third, time that’s happened. it’s just irritating to always have the schedual change without being told in advance… it used to be that when there was a change we sould be told and we would have to sign paperwork- annoying in some ways, but at least everyone knew what was going on. now though… things just seem to happen. like i was told to some in 2 lessons late, then when i asked about it again i was told, no, we decided that you should only come in one lesson late. ok… but was anyone going to inform me of this? first it’s 2, then it’s one. so what if i hadn’t asked? i wouldn’t have been there when i was needed and that’s not good for anyone! HOWEVER- just because i’m not being told in advance of changes to my schedual doesn’t mean i should get irritated with it. i don’t need to act like a little princess and i don’t need to get upset about things so easily… i can always got to the pool another day. it’s not worth being upset over. and it’s not worth making other people uncomfortable. big sigh. aghh… grow up kylie! i can’t control other people’s actions, but i can control mine. and i shouldn’t jump to conclusions. i thought it was a mistake ont he part of the secratary working at my branch… possibly it was in some way, but it very well could have been her boss. i do know we used to have to be informed of any changes, and that that would have been her job, but i don’t know what’s going on now and i shouldn’t assume anything. and i really shouldn’t get upset about things like that. ok… so lesson learned and i’m going to try and not get annoyed the next time something like that happens. it’s life.

on the up side though… i was really good as far as eating today! and i got in 45 min latin dance, and 30 min yoga. and i got to play with clay last night! more tonight and then off to sleep

tokyo was great, but i ate so much crap!! i’m not totally back to old habits, but way too many are creeping in and i’m starting to get really worries about it. so for this next week, i’m planning, logging, and taking pictures of EVERYTHING i eat. strange, i know, but it will definately make me think before i put anything into my mouth. the other goal- i’ve got to get some exercise every day and even though it’s not directly weight related, i need to get back into making art again. i miss it. too many things to do in life!

tokyo was a blast in a lot of ways, and a headache in many others. ahh… i love that city! there’s just so much energy and so much life! lol- and way too much shopping to be done. best of all was the art though- i went to about 8 different museums and galleries while i was there and most of it was great. really makes me want to get back into doing things again but just thinking about trying to balance everything makes me a little nervous… but if i don’t try that’s worse than failing, isn’t it? right- so off to catch up on some blogs

lol- just how i’m feeling at the moment, i suppose. i’m going to tokyo in three days! i love that place… it’s a crazy big city, but there’s so much LIFE! i don’t think i’m going to be able to get in as much (hard) exercise as i would like, but i know i’m going to get in a lot of walking, so that’s good. and there’s a park near the hotel that we’re staying at so i should be able to go jogging a couple times there. yesterday was pretty good as far as exercise- i got in a 10k jog and 80 some-odd flights of stairs and (almost) no sweets! today just some walking. eating wasn’t perfect, but i’m not too worried about it. and tomorrow… swim! really looking foward to that.

life… fabulous, really. there are so many things to be happy for! there’s so much beauty and so many amazing things all around us, but it’s so easy sometimes to just overlook it all. it’s easy to remember when things are going well, so hard to remember when we hit snags. at least, it is for me sometimes. so- i’m writing this down so when i’m feleing like crap, maybe i’ll remember it and i’ll realize things aren’t really so bad afterall.

title says it! six servings of fruit and veggies a day, do yoga at least once, 1000 pushups, get in at least 60 minutes of exercise every day- doesn’t have to be hard everyday, but just something. and 3L of water a day! i’ve been so so so bad about that lately. k- now off for the exercise!

well, finally feeling almost like a normal person again. lol- was sick, started to feel better, went swimming a couple times and made myself sick again. stupid! so i’m almost better again, and i can’t wait to start getting some exercise back in! and i haven’t been eating so well either but… not much i can do about it now. plan better tomorrow and eat better tomorrow. and get in some walking! ahh… why do i have to love garbage so much?!!