inspiration08

well, its my first bog here so i suppose i should say something about myself, no? i’m currently living in “rural” japan and teaching english, and so far thats been, and is continuing to be, great. i throughly enjoy my students, exploring the culture and i’m still amazed by this place. and if you ever want to feel self-concious, this is a fabulous place to be! about the largest size (in women’s clothes) is a size 6- and that isn’t even in all the stores. not so great for self-confidence. 

i’ve never been too good at writing about myself, and i’m finding myself struggling a bit about what to say on here. i’m really wanting to finally get back into shape and healthy again- i think the last time i could say i was really either of those i was about 16. when i was 17, i managed to get myself pregnant- the baby boy i had (who i later gave up for adoption to a fabulous couple- we still see eachother and they are a wonderful family, but i’d say it definately left plenty of emotional scars, as well as stretch marks and a sagging stomach) is absolutely wonderful, but that was a very difficult time in my life. I ended up turning to food for comfort and gained about 60 pounds. I’ve managed to loose about quite a bit of it and I only have about another 25 pounds to go, but I’ve had between 25-35 of those pounds for the past 10 years. Since then, I messed up more that I’d care to admit, but I feel like I’m finally starting to deal with the mistakes I’ve made and I’m figuring out who I am and what I should/want to be doing… and it seems like to me part of dealing with everything is getting myself healthy again- both mentally and physically. I’m hoping to find some support on this journey, as are I think many of the people on this site, and I’m really hoping that I can help and support the people I encounter. But enough typing for now!